When I have stood in deep waters...

I have known I am not alone.  I have been held, carried, and had you make the most amazing way for me Father.

When I have been weak, hungry, and ready to die, you have provided even at the hand of two widows.

When my father on this earth beat me and broke me, and my mother hated me, and rejected me, you gave me a man to stand beside me in all things.  

Even when you permitted that which should not be done, and humbled me, even so.

When you took him away from me, and I was so broken in my deepest hell, you had created a plan that was so wonderous and had a Holy man, who was his twin from another place, another way, ready to stand beside me.

You went before me, and never left me alone.  I am pressing into you.  I will not fear, even as we go toward the sacrifice and choice.  Through our trials you have always been faithful for through these trials of fire we have been cleaned before you to witness that you are the ONE, the only ONE who can take care of us, for you created us.

In these dark days, I know you will not leave me, for you have always been there.  I witness that the Holy Father of Heaven is always there, and I might be saved through his son, Yeshuah the Christ, and that his WORD blows upon the wind every which way I turn.  I witness that you have not let me fall, and that you have trialed me in the fires of pain, of suffering, of hunger, of despair, of all things.  I witness that I am a sinner as all others and I am able to be forgiven only by following the law of the WORD, Jesus, Yeshuah, the Christ, with a humble heart as a child.

His name, His Holy name, of His name, Adonai,  I call upon to say thank you for our food this week, for being able to pay our rent, for having work, for having protection as the world is destroyed around us, that you have given us a firm foot place, a shelter, and a hiding place from the evil of our brothers and sisters that break every commandment, and do such evil, that profane and mock you the only King forever who reigns for all eternity.  Oh Glory to you and Holy be all things my King to you.  You amaze me, you take care of us who are so not worthy, you are our refuge and strength.  Please come quickly, oh my beloved, I await you from my knees, oh my beloved you are my love, my love from when I was so little.

I am a daughter of the King most High,  and I have washed my robes, I have cleaned myself, I have repented, and do follow your WORD will all my heart and way.  It pains me if I sin, it hurts me, and I watch the sky my beloved for you, I wait for your brightness in the clouds my love.  I repent, oh how I repent, and render my soul, even in sack cloth and in fast, I wait, I await that day and will dance in the street as David did.  I will rejoice and sing in that day your song.  Oh my beloved, even though the fire burns, even tho the blood will run, even tho, the young and old will fall, even tho the waves will rage, and the waters will be blood, for everyone is worthy of your anger my beloved, I want to be where you are.